I know usually I don't write much in here, but I'm feeling a bit funny at the moment and I suppose I need an outlet.
My fourth semester started back this Monday and my friends - non-architecture friends - have been asking to see me. This in itself isnt the problem, the problem is I'm really busy already and don't have alot of time to spend with them, even though I'd like to.
Some of them seem to understand that architecture is a crazy commitment, some I feel think I'm blowing them off or not making enough time for them. Maybe I'm not.
I'm awfully worried that I'm going to lose my friends. Well no, actually I don't think that will happen, but I'm worried I'll lose closeness with my friends. I don't want my friends to be a casualty of my studies.
Furthermore, I can hear and I can see disappointment when I say I can't attend something or wont see them in awhile. I feel so awful, so guilty for not being there enough. I try and make it clear that I'll be there whenever they need me, but maybe thats not enough. I shouldn't be a fair weather or a on-call friend. Its not really fair to them. I feel especially guilty with one of my closest friends. They've been a rock, especially in my first year of study and now I hardly see them.
Eugh I don't know what to do. I don't know what I can do. I suppose this is a wait and see situation and I'll find a better way to juggle things...where nothing gets scarificed.
